Finally, we get to spill the beans!

Well, it's been an interesting past few months of working with our OB to figure out what's wrong with me. Little did we know... 3 1/2 yrs. later, that we had polycystic ovarian syndrome-totally normal and treatable with meds. So, we went to the doc every other day for about two weeks or so to get sonos to see if things were working. If not, I was going to start meds in June and start trying again in July.

So, we learned that one egg 'took' and was ready to ovulate (totally a God-thing b/c it hadn't done this EVER). We knew exactly when to try, and we got pregnant right away. We learned we were having a baby in late May. So, we have been keeping our secret for a while now and are 12 weeks pregnant. We've had two great sonos, one at six-weeks and the other at eight. Yesterday, we had the doppler heartbeat check, and we heard a strong 164/mn heartbeat. So, all is well and the news is all out!

It was great telling family last night, and we're excited for our friends to know of just how amazing it is to be blessed by God. We can't wait for our little bundle of joy in January!

Long time... finally hope & progress

So, ever since last time to ovulate (June 2008), I haven't been able to do it since. It's been a rollercoaster of emotions with my mom's illness and dog's death, but I think we've all recovered. I've been very encouraged by a very close group of people who have helped me get through this rough journey in our lives.

Thankfully, we're seeing progress. Last month, God decided to let me ovulate... when from 0.2 levels of progesterone to 12.6 in one month! Praise God! Didn't get pregnant, but we're excited my body worked on it's own this month, and we're back to the meds this week and trying next!

When I had my doc appointment on Day 21 (when levels went from 0.2 to 12.6)... I was unbelievable at peace. I entered the doors and my neighboor immediately welcomed me and asked how we were doing... my nurse cried w/me as she's going through the EXACT same thing, and my doc is amazing with my high-level of emotions. I just left leaving there calm and at peace... little did I know I'd learn about my levels during this peace.

So, things are looking up, and we're remaining positive. I just can't describe how wonderful a few of my friends have been as we're going through this. There are few people that can be sensitive to our feelings, and for that I'm very thankful. Kim remains the rock during these trials; he is SIMPLY AMAZING! God knew what he was doing when he brought Kim in my life!!!

Hoping my levels remain high this month, and perhaps we can get pregnant... we'll continue to wait and see.

My God is bigger than infertility!!!!!!!!!!

Two months up to speed in one paragraph

Well, I didn't ovulate last month at all, haven't yet as of this month and am patiently waiting. This week I learned my mom's got cancer and so does my dog. It's been a much harder week than all of my infertility whoas combined. See, God knows what he's doing. Doesn't make the situations easier to get through, but it does remind me I'm in His care, and he'll provide.

Positive thoughts!

One would not think I'd be excited to 'start' after more than two years of trying. However, when I did yesterday, I was overjoyed. One month after my surgery I started on my own! YAHOO! While I didn't ovulate, I still started and will begin meds tomorrow (Friday, September 26 - I month from my D&C and three months from when I got preggers.)

I'm thankful God is encouraging me daily through my great friends, coworkers and positive thoughts. I'm not down in the dumps, and I'm grateful for that. Praying God will continue to help me get through this major hiccup in life.

In God's hands

I started meds for this month, and will learn if I ovulated on September 16 - appt is September 15. I'm hoping for a 12, but am going into it with the reality it may not be there the next month following the D&C.

Emotionally, I'm doing better than I thought I would, and my body has healed fantastically! More to come on September 16. We did what we had to this past week :) ... It's in God's hands!

A fresh start

Well, my D&C went as well as to be expected. I completely freaked about my IV, yet was totally calm for the surgery. As a matter of fact, I only had tears all day for the stupid needle and was super relaxed prior to surgery. It got over sooner than we thought, and Dr. R said I didn't have a ton of tissue and should expect to feel well soon. I felt a little bad yesterday afternoon in between my multiple naps, but today I honestly feel perfectly fine. I had a host of kind words via cyberspace and calls from my closest friends yesterday and today, which meant the world... thank you!

I am so glad it's now behind me, and I'm already thinking about what my next progesterone level will be... praying for another 12 or higher! We actually get to start trying right away, and I'll start my meds tomorrow (days 3-7) like we did in June. I know it may take a while for it to happen again, but I'm believing it can still happen at any given point - that will keep me going. God is clearly still in charge of this endeavor and will make it happen when he wants to. I'm just doing what I need to and trusting He'll make it work! :)

Huge up and ups, and Major down!

As a follow-up to my last post and to say it simply, I did receive a miracle... Kim and I learned we were pregnant on July 26. We were so overjoyed and ecstatic! I had an appointment when I was four weeks. Today marks 8 weeks. For the past several weeks, I've experienced pregnancy at it's finest... heartburn, bloating, nauseau at night, etc. It's been absolutely amazing praising God for this unbelieveable miracle. Just think one month before I got pregnant my progesterone was 1.4, then 12~ God is good!

On a much more sad note... I went in today for my sono to make sure things were progressing well, and learned I'm no longer pregnant. I had a blighted ovum, a.k.a. early pregnancy loss. Basically, we conceived, and the fertilized egg attached to the uterus wall as was supposed to. However, the fertilized egg didn't create a baby. This can happen for a number of reasons - bad eggs or chromosome issues. So, we're emotionally going through the pits today. This doesn't increase changes of it happening again, although it could as with anyone. I read today that about 50% of miscarriages are caused by this. I'm just thankful we learned this early and I didn't lose a baby... but I did lose a pregnancy. So, I have a D&C scheduled on Tuesday, b/c my uterus was working well and had a placenta and all - just no baby. Tuesday will be a rough day, but my close friends and family will get me through it.

Right now, I'm sad, frustrated, joyful knowing my body works and hopeful we can have a healthy baby someday.