Two months up to speed in one paragraph

Well, I didn't ovulate last month at all, haven't yet as of this month and am patiently waiting. This week I learned my mom's got cancer and so does my dog. It's been a much harder week than all of my infertility whoas combined. See, God knows what he's doing. Doesn't make the situations easier to get through, but it does remind me I'm in His care, and he'll provide.

Positive thoughts!

One would not think I'd be excited to 'start' after more than two years of trying. However, when I did yesterday, I was overjoyed. One month after my surgery I started on my own! YAHOO! While I didn't ovulate, I still started and will begin meds tomorrow (Friday, September 26 - I month from my D&C and three months from when I got preggers.)

I'm thankful God is encouraging me daily through my great friends, coworkers and positive thoughts. I'm not down in the dumps, and I'm grateful for that. Praying God will continue to help me get through this major hiccup in life.

In God's hands

I started meds for this month, and will learn if I ovulated on September 16 - appt is September 15. I'm hoping for a 12, but am going into it with the reality it may not be there the next month following the D&C.

Emotionally, I'm doing better than I thought I would, and my body has healed fantastically! More to come on September 16. We did what we had to this past week :) ... It's in God's hands!

A fresh start

Well, my D&C went as well as to be expected. I completely freaked about my IV, yet was totally calm for the surgery. As a matter of fact, I only had tears all day for the stupid needle and was super relaxed prior to surgery. It got over sooner than we thought, and Dr. R said I didn't have a ton of tissue and should expect to feel well soon. I felt a little bad yesterday afternoon in between my multiple naps, but today I honestly feel perfectly fine. I had a host of kind words via cyberspace and calls from my closest friends yesterday and today, which meant the world... thank you!

I am so glad it's now behind me, and I'm already thinking about what my next progesterone level will be... praying for another 12 or higher! We actually get to start trying right away, and I'll start my meds tomorrow (days 3-7) like we did in June. I know it may take a while for it to happen again, but I'm believing it can still happen at any given point - that will keep me going. God is clearly still in charge of this endeavor and will make it happen when he wants to. I'm just doing what I need to and trusting He'll make it work! :)

Huge up and ups, and Major down!

As a follow-up to my last post and to say it simply, I did receive a miracle... Kim and I learned we were pregnant on July 26. We were so overjoyed and ecstatic! I had an appointment when I was four weeks. Today marks 8 weeks. For the past several weeks, I've experienced pregnancy at it's finest... heartburn, bloating, nauseau at night, etc. It's been absolutely amazing praising God for this unbelieveable miracle. Just think one month before I got pregnant my progesterone was 1.4, then 12~ God is good!

On a much more sad note... I went in today for my sono to make sure things were progressing well, and learned I'm no longer pregnant. I had a blighted ovum, a.k.a. early pregnancy loss. Basically, we conceived, and the fertilized egg attached to the uterus wall as was supposed to. However, the fertilized egg didn't create a baby. This can happen for a number of reasons - bad eggs or chromosome issues. So, we're emotionally going through the pits today. This doesn't increase changes of it happening again, although it could as with anyone. I read today that about 50% of miscarriages are caused by this. I'm just thankful we learned this early and I didn't lose a baby... but I did lose a pregnancy. So, I have a D&C scheduled on Tuesday, b/c my uterus was working well and had a placenta and all - just no baby. Tuesday will be a rough day, but my close friends and family will get me through it.

Right now, I'm sad, frustrated, joyful knowing my body works and hopeful we can have a healthy baby someday.

Received a miracle today

Well, my progesterone last month was only a 1.4 out of a magical number of 12. So, my doc decided to try different days of my cycle for the meds, and yesterday I went in for day 21 blood work. Honestly, I was hoping for a 4 just so I could see some type of numerical progress. Well, instead, I got more than I bargained for!

My nurse called around noon today and told me that my level this month was a 12.0 - I know, it's crazy! It's literally a miracle straight from the hands of God! So, I will wait until either I start or on day 35, July 30, when I'll take a test. I'm just soooo thrilled that my body worked. I hope if I'm not preggers, which I'm not expecting to be, that my body continues to work at this pace. Kim was super excited, so we enjoyed dinner out to celebrate!!!!

My mom told me tonight she just feels things are going in the right direction and that it would happen soon... regardless, my God gave me a miracle today. And for that, I'm grateful!

Jeremiah 29:11 "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'"

Positive Thoughts aren't easy, but necessary

Day 21 rolled around, and no ovulation! However, I did start so I began new meds on day three. Doc didn't want to increase the hormone b/c he's trying to see if he can detect if my system is working on different days than the norm. So, instead of taking the drug days 5-9, I'm taking it 3-7. Beginning tomorrow, I'll do the ovulation test on my own and get my blood drawn on Day 21, July 16, for the official word.

Today, I learned two co-workers are preggers... one via e-mail and the other in person. It was hard, but I honestly wasn't as bummed today like normal. I DO believe God is still in control, and I'm confident it will happen. Doesn't make one day easier than the other, but I do know God's on my side, and Kim's on the other... we'll get through this and be able to tell everyone just how amazing God is! Positive thoughts aren't always the easiest on days like today, but it's necessary and I can't doubt His master plan... wish he would just give me some insight! :)