Peaceful, easy feeling

I'm surprising myself. God is really giving me lots of peace, and my emotions have been stable this week. Right after we learned we weren't pregnant, we learned Kim's friend's mom passed away. This really has put things into perspective for us and given something else to think about this week.

It's been nice not jumping right in to meds and beginning my countdown days. :)

Staying positive, while not

So, we got the news today that we're not preggers. It was a tough one; they don't get easier. After many, many tears... I'm doing much better. While it wasn't the answer I was hoping for, I'm at peace about it.

I had an amazing talk with Kim about it, and we're going to hold off on things for a while. We're not setting a timeline at the moment.

We'll just chill out on the hormone meds, let my body try and create the ones I need for once in my life, save our money for future appointments and get healthy. Pregnant or not, I have to loose some weight... who knows that might help! Kim's been doing great working out also and eating better, so it's helping.

More to come on this issue when we know what to do. Until then, we're still trusting in God to do miracles and praying. I know it's not a closed door, but I don't know where the open one is or when it will come... but it WILL come!

Faithful Myrtle

So, I just need to get some things off my chest. I learned today and yesterday that a co-worker's wife and my really good coworker friend are both expecting. I hate to say I'll be dreading the lunch conversation each day, because that isn't true, but it's so hard to swallow. I truly am very happy for them both! I constantly pray that bumps like this in the road won't get me down and that I remain positive. So far, so good... but it's so hard to hear all the time.

I recently read an excerpt of my mom's devotional, which talked about how God is always opening doors. And how we just need to realize this and be ready for the next door in His timing. I 100 percent agree God is in control of this situation, and since He hasn't closed any doors, I'm putting my faith forward and believing He'll open one for Kim and I for a baby. I'm not overly anxious and impatient as I once was... it's just the emotional side of it that can get to you, ya know!

So, while I'm not Fertile Myrtle like most people I know and am surrounded by, I am a Faithful Myrtle and will continue to pray my faith continues and my attitude stays good.

Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight."